The start of 2013 also marked my first crush since 2011. The girl was my classmate indeed and also she was very close to me. We used to hang out literally everyday and we were a trio- Me, My Crush, and our Mutual friend whom I also called my sister. The everyday schedule was like a fixed one where after college we used to go and have some of our favorite snacks and used to have talks about the day at the college. Though I've called her my crush from the start of this post but it wasn't so till April. We were very good friends and like many girls she considered me one of her closest friends. As it was our first year at college we didn't had many contacts or friends so most of the times it was only her and me as the third member of the group was a local and she couldn't stay for long after college hours.
Then came the semester exam times and they were one of the happy days for me as we used to spend whole day together studying and chatting. We became so close that after my 2nd semester result when my percentage dropped by 11% she literally scolded me for what happened to me and why my grades went down so much. Feeling ashamed at my grades I decided to study hard and touch the higher grades again. I never told her I had a crush on her but told my sister, the 3rd member, and asked her to keep this thing between us and should not let it reach Her. I know I am avoiding to use the name but it's just for their safety and also to save embarrassment to her for writing a story on a public website. Where was I? Oh Yeah! The telling part. But as it's like a universal rule for girls and woman to gossip about things, my secret was spilled among the girls of class. The secret soon reached Her ears which I never knew when. After our 3rd semester exam we went home for vacations and during one fine evening when I was whiling away my time on Facebook I received a text from her saying she came to know about my feelings for her and that she never expected this from and all the usual stuff of I considered you as my best friend and how can you do like this. I wanted to call her at that moment but since she was at home she asked not to call her. When asked how and from whom she got to know about this I only got the answer that it was just a few days before my birthday that she came to know about this but decided to let it be like a secret till today. I was dumbstruck after reading her replies as I never had a clue that she knew about and even after knowing about me she was acting the regular way. I was watching the famous sitcom 'FRIENDS' at that time and as a habit I tried to adopt the rules from the sitcom that never have a crush on a friend. I told her that I will try my best to finish these feelings by myself and will not make things awkward when we meet in person. But I knew this was not going to be the same. December 16, 2013 was the start of our 4th semester and I wanted to meet her and apologise in person but also avoided it to not to make the topic come again. Soon the news of my crush on her spread to the guys too and it was becoming very hard for us to be together normally. Since 2012 there had been many rumours about me being in a relationship with a girl named 'K' (not her actual name it's just what I call her) just because we were frank with each other and I was the first guy in the college she talked with and that too suddenly one day she waits for me after college while I came out with the guys and then I went on with her till her hostel which was near my PG room. This had led many guys into asking me about my crush and I had to say NO to everyone for her Safety. The crush thing was becoming a cause for me apoligising to her repeatedly and constantly asking her for one more chance of being a good friend as she wanted to break the friendship. Till 2014 our little group of 3 had expanded into a huge group made of guys and girls. When we were in 4th semester she wanted to do an energy contraption project but I never knew about this and one day suddenly she calls me says, "I want you in the contraption project group with me." An instant yes came from me as this was a great opportunity for me to get back as a good friend. Everything went well till the contraption project lasted and it lasted for almost 3 months as went to 2 other colleges after we were done in our college. I was happy as things were becoming normal but I was wrong soon after the project ended she showed nothing but ignorance. This enraged me as it felt like using me for something on interest to her as she used to ignore me in front of everyone. I am a short tempered person that time and decided to have my revenge and do the same to her. 'K' noticed me acting and used to taunt me for doing such things and called me a devil. But soon I apologised to her for acting in such a way and told her the truth regarding me giving her taste of her own medicine.
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